girl at the hospital

our eyes met only for a moment

yet i lost my balance and fell in.

i tumbled down a long staircase

all the way to the very bottom.

i knew it would be just as it was.

it was warm, and full of goodness,

life, and soothing motherhood.

slowly and reluctantly, i climbed

back up the staircase and out.

she was someone else’s lover,

and all i could do was to take

one quick, final look back