our eyes met only for a moment
yet i lost my balance and fell in.
i tumbled down a long staircase
all the way to the very bottom.
i knew it would be just as it was.
it was warm, and full of goodness,
life, and soothing motherhood.
slowly and reluctantly, i climbed
back up the staircase and out.
she was someone else’s lover,
and all i could do was to take
one quick, final look back